"Late night Kapal Api"

I bet when you guys read this , you would wonder, what is "Kapal Api"? So, Kapal Api is a coffee first established in 1927, Surabaya by Go Soe Loet. At first, this coffee did not have a brand or logo, but it then was named steam ship or "Kapal Api" which at that time symbolizes luxury. To be honest, I have not even tried this coffee, Nescafe yes , but not this one. Its motto is "Jelas lebih Enak", which means much more delicious. Actually, in this writing I'm not going to talk about the coffee, but about the late night that follows it. I'm not a coffee drinker, but I guess I'll say my conscious is part of the coffee that sometimes keeps me awake at night. You know that feeling when you just don't feel tired but you know you have to sleep? Or that you feel tired but you just don't want to sleep? Yeah, it happens.

 


What will accompany you except a cup of coffee? What if everyone's asleep already, and you are just there,in your room, either surfing or reading a book,but you're wide awake. It kind of feels lonely. Yes, the feeling of loneliness. I don't get it, why do people have to have it? What's the use of being lonely? It doesn't help you nor it is a positive thing. It just is a feeling that is uncomfortable in your chest. Sort of, or just that emptiness you feel in a milisecond. I don't know, I guess I'm just blabbering about. I know that I can sleep if I just close my eyes and drowse or something, but it's like one certain day where you don't feel like sleeping, yet.  They say human needs to have at least 6 hours of sleep. I guess it's true; when you wake up with less than that, your eyes will have bags under it. You'll get dizzy and exhausted, with muscle pains everywhere, I experienced that. It's not a good feeling either, which is being lonely and having little sleep. I guess people will experience that in a certain time of their life. 


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To add, you guys know that coffee makes you awake right ? It can be positive if we need to do some important stuff, but it can be negative because it's not good for your health. Let's take the real context into a different perspective. You know, coffee's good when it's hot right? It gives out the steam. When we're feeling lonely, and we drink and breathe the steam from the coffee, we get a warm feeling that extinguishes the negative feeling. It's a certain nice, fuzzy , ticklish sentiment your heart gets. Yeah, I guess I get it now. We need to feel lonely because without loneliness, we would think that we wouldn't need anyone to share their compassion and care towards us because we don't have the loneliness. However, if we have it, we would always want someone to be there for us, to fill the gap in our heart that will always emerge out of nowhere. Yeah, that's right. Everything is made for a reason. So, I guess loneliness has its uses also. To stop blabbering, I guess it's time to call it the tops for today. I have a speech about a "Cold Mountain" scene where Sally Swanger is tortured, if you get what I mean.


Goodnite.Sleeptite.Don't let the bedbugs bite.
Always and will be,
Bryna